Humanitos

Today I sat among Friends in meditation and silence while my head filled with noise of itself.
I sounded questions i’d not wrestled with since sophomore years:
What’s the point? What is the meaning of life? What is the purpose of our existence? Is there a god and how would god be expressed? What happens after death?
I have been asking these questions because two very important relationships in my existence are transitioning from this life form of corporeal being into whatever follows.
Sitting among these Friends and among these questions and my internal noise, i hear the entrance of small new human lives and the inadvertent noises that accompany them.
No need to peek to know the forms of the sources of these sounds; i keep my eyes shut and listen.
I am drawn to the presence of these small species-relatives.
My silent focus turns to their delightful wonder-music.
Then I return to my existential meandering meditation.
Breaking into my mind is a gentle “shush” from an adult and one small voice asks, “Why?”
I smile again as i am harmoniously focusing on the very same question.
Moments later i hear from the newest life a short babbling- gurgle and with it, I am given a meaning.
Within seconds, the slightly older by maybe two and a half years voice asks: “What’s that?”
I am grinnier.
My existential questions are being asked by another beginning entity – Why? What’s that?
Ah! Then i hear a quiet squeal: “There’s daddy!”
A god incarnate has appeared!
Now the smile is growing from my face into my heart.
Here it all is.
The same questions at the beginning of life as at the end.
Simple and direct.
Sometimes i find companionship in the smallest beings.